Among all of the auditions, potential jobs that fall through, set-backs, and few triumphs, it is easy for someone in my position to lose motivation. To lose site of what they set out to do. Recently, I have been going through a major slump in my career. I get called to some really great auditions, but it seems like I am either too tall, too short, too big, too small, Japanese is too good, Japanese is not good enough, or any number of reasons why I would not be selected. After being around the industry this long- I am somewhat used to it- however my motivation was still losing steam.
I have the honor of working with some of the most talented people I have ever met in the musical I am currently doing. One of which played the lead in HAIR back in the day. Last week on one of my favorite TV shows, a couple danced to a song from that show. I brought my computer to the dressing room and showed him. We got to talking and on a whim- he said "you should see the show. it will rock your world... you'd be good in that cast." That night I started searching youtube for any clips that would give me some additional insight to the show. This is what I found.
Something struck me. Hard. Wow. I was in awe at the power of the songs, the creativity, the message. I think I have watched this clip more than 100 times. I never tire of seeing it. Danny was right. My world has been rocked. I called my voice coach and scheduled a long-overdue lesson. I started looking at my calendar to see when I could fit dance lessons, and cattle-call auditions into my schedule. Again- motivated- ready.
Not since my RENT audition a few years ago have I been THIS excited to pound the pavement and get the door of rejection slammed in my face.
Good things are in store. I know it. Big things are to come. I know it.
